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8:11 PM

michele`

My mind really needs a space to speak.

I'm feeling so stressed up with every single thing.
I constantly ask myself, why am I such an insecure bitch, where's my confident (if I even had them), why can't I just stop being paranoid and live my own life.

It's so hard to please.

It's even harder to understand how to love or show love, when things like that happens.

Come mess with my emotions and moods,
because you've the ability to.

4:35 PM

michele`

Obviously this is you.
Nothing will change the fact.

Don't let anyone bring you down.
Nobody has the right to.

This is tiring.

1:46 AM

michele`

Now I have a gold Blackberry. So wanna buy the red one!

Baby changed his BlackBerry to Iphone 4, just when the housing I bought for him shipped in. Wasted.

Two more assignment and one test. I hate the essay writing, left with exactly one week, should start reading up now.

Met Zhenying, Jacintha, Pei Shan and Min Hui yesterday. Clar happened to be there as well. Sarah couldn't make it as it was her Mum's birthday.

Seriously, it is only when I'm with them, I feel like myself. And I can laugh freely and happily. :)

8:41 AM

michele`

Ordered the blackberry housing already, can't wait for it to be shipped in! :D

Finally left with the last project for now, and then another test and assignments will be coming up again. :(

I really wanna run away and take a breath.
Forget about everything and not being bothered by anything.

But it seems hard for me to do so.

1:23 PM

michele`

two tests coming up next week & i haven't start with my preparation.
just not in the mood to do anything at all.
the only thing that i want is to go overseas & have fun, though there ain't any holidays coming up yet.

i don't know why, but i feel so moody for the past few days.

anyway, i really feel like getting the gold blackberry housing.
gotta go check it out at Sim Lim Square before i buy it from ebay.

oh great, i have a project meeting tomorrow, and im not prepared as well.
i've been slacking the whole day, and i am still refusing to pull out my study table.

9:52 PM

michele`

I tried to make things better.
I really did and I'm still trying very hard to.

But nothing changes, nothing helps.

It's so painful, but I can't say a word.

You won't understand my pain, neither would you try and understand my pain.

Trust.
It all begin with trust, before you let yourself befriend with someone. And then, you start sharing little moments, secrets and then everything just with the simple word, trust that you give away to that person. You don't hide anything nor do you feel uncomfortable sharing anything with that person. Soon enough, you grow closer relationship and the least expected from one is secret between each other. When you start to realise that the word trust become blur and unclear, you wonder, who is this person who you once trusted so much. Can he be trusted anymore? Such strange connection, such strange sudden of change.

10:30 AM

michele`